Clay Balls

My sister sent me the following story that she came across on the Internet. I thought it might be worth sharing.

A man was exploring caves by the Seashore. In one of the caves he found a canvas bag with a bunch of hardened clay balls. It was like someone had rolled clay balls and left them out in the sun to bake. They didn't look like much, but they intrigued the man, so he took the bag out of the cave with him. As he strolled along the beach, he would throw the clay balls one at a time out into the ocean as far as he could.

He thought little about it, until he dropped one of the clay balls and it cracked open on a rock. Inside was a beautiful, precious stone!

Excited, the man started breaking open the remaining clay balls. Each contained a similar treasure. He found thousands of dollars worth of jewels in the 20 or so clay balls he had left.

Then it struck him. He had been on the beach a long time. He had thrown maybe 50 or 60 of the clay balls with their hidden treasure into the ocean waves. Instead of thousands of dollars in treasure, he could have taken home tens of thousands, but he had just thrown it away!

It's like that with people. We look at someone, maybe even ourselves, and we see the external clay vessel. It doesn't look like much from the outside. It isn't always beautiful or sparkling, so we discount it.

We see that person as less important than someone more beautiful or stylish or well known or wealthy. But we have not taken the time to find the treasure hidden inside that person.

There is a treasure in each and every one of us. If we take the time to get to know that person, and if we ask God to show us that person the way He sees them, then the clay begins to peel away and the brilliant gem begins to shine forth.

May we not come to the end of our lives and find out that we have thrown away a fortune in friendships because the gems were hidden in bits of clay. May we see the people in our world as God sees them.

Maps in the Head (Key #3)

When Mommy remembers the keys and does get the car started, she often goes to new places. That's where rule #3 comes in: know where you are going.

One day she took a new colleague from her office in Washington, D.C. to Annapolis, Maryland for a meeting. They had a very good meeting. Both had to be home for other meetings in the early evening, however, so they left in the late afternoon. That was good timing. They could miss rush-hour traffic (although there is not much rush-hour traffic in Annapolis) and be back in Washington, D.C. in plenty of time.

They drove out to Route 50 and headed for home. Mommy drove and drove. Washington should be showing up pretty soon. Sure enough, buildings came into sight.

"Look," Mommy said. "We're almost there."

"But those don't look like any Washington buildings I've seen," her colleague said. Of course, he was new to Washington, so he did not really know what all the buildings in Washington looked like.

"I don't recognize them, either," said Mommy. "But we're coming in from a different direction than I am used to."

They drove further, and the buildings got nearer. None of those other buildings looked familiar, either. Suddenly, there was water—and ocean—in front of the car.

"Hey, Washington isn't on the ocean!" said Mommy's colleague.

"But it's not that far from the ocean," said Mommy.

Pretty soon a sign appeared. Mommy's colleague said, "I think we're in Baltimore."

He was right. The sign said, "Welcome to Baltimore."

"One little mistake…" answered Mommy. (That one little mistake meant that they got home really late and missed their meetings.)
Mommy also sometimes goes long distances. Once she and a colleague drove from Pittsburgh to a conference at Northwestern University north of Chicago. Mommy sort of knew the road in general, so they took off and drove for a couple of hours. Somewhere inside the state of Ohio, Mommy asked her colleague to look at the map.

"Where is the map?" asked the colleague.

"I thought you were bringing a map," Mommy said.

"No, I thought you were bringing the map, " her colleague replied.

Oops! Well, they did make it without a map and without mishap all the way to the exact building where the conference was being held.

Mommy was quite pleased. She was also pretty certain that she would find the road back just fine. She should not have been.

As they were driving along, her colleague said, "I think we're in Michigan." (Michigan was not one of the states that they were supposed to be going through.)

"That cannot be," said Mommy.

"So, why does the highway sign say Michigan Route 94?" asked the colleague.

"Because that exit goes to Route 94," answered Mommy.

They drove a little further. Then Mommy's colleague had another question.

"The exit there says Gerald Ford Expressway," she noted. "Wasn't Gerald Ford from Michigan?"

"The exit must go to the Gerald Ford Expressway," Mommy explained patiently.

They drove still further. Soon there was a big highway sign with mileage to Battle Creek, Kalamazoo, and Detroit. Mommy admitted that they were probably in Michigan. My Mommy's colleague probably thought that Mommy was crazy. She may have been right.

Conclusion: Maps in the car are better than maps in the head!

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This story is excerpted from a collection of vignettes that I helped Doah, my severely mentally challenged youngest son, to write and publish several years ago (copyright 2003). It was my attempt to help him understand literacy and the purpose of writing and reading.

The Car That Would Not Start (Key #2)

Rule for the road #2 says that in order to get somewhere, you have to be able to start the car. That means, of course, that you already have the keys. Sometimes that is difficult for Mommy to keep both of these rules straight.

Once she returned to the parking lot after work to find that she did not have the keys to the car. Before going back to the office, she looked inside. Sure enough, there were the keys. At least with this car, she knew how to break in and get the keys. In a little while, she was inside, but the car would not start (rule #2). It was now pretty late, and there were not very many people around. Mommy went to the garage attendant and asked if he knew someone who could give her a jump.

"Are you driving that brown van on the top level?" he asked.

"Yeah!" Mommy was surprised that he knew which car she drove.

"Well, you're out of gas," he said.

"How's that?" she asked. How could he know she was out of gas? Besides, the car had not been on empty when she parked it.

He did know. He explained, "Because you left the keys in the ignition with the car running and the door locked. We tried to get in but could not. The car finally ran out of gas in the middle of the afternoon."

Oops! He probably thought that Mommy was crazy. Maybe he was right.

Conclusion: If you want to go somewhere, you have to be able to start the car.


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This story is excerpted from a collection of vignettes that I helped Doah, my severely mentally challenged youngest son, to write and publish several years ago (copyright 2003). It was my attempt to help him understand literacy and the purpose of writing and reading.

Those Darn Keys (Key #1)

I do not know how to drive, but I do know that there are three rules that are important for driving. First, you have to have the keys, or you cannot drive at all. Second, you have to get the car started, or you do not go anywhere at all. Third, you have to know where you are going or have a map, or you do not get to the right place. I think Mommy knows these rules, too, but it seems like she forgets a lot.

With keys (rule #1), for example, she locks them inside the car so often that Daddy bought her a little box with a spare key to hide somewhere on the car. She also has locked me in the car by accident and had to call the police to get me out. She has locked my sister in the car by accident and called the police to get her out. (The police have come to know Mommy pretty well, and they just shake their heads when they come and see who it is.)

The little black box works, though, but sometimes Mommy drives a different car without a little box. Then she is in trouble again.

Once Mommy returned to a non-little-black-box car from the bookstore, only to find the car locked. She looked in her purse for the keys, but they were not there. Then she saw keys inside on the seat. Oh, oh! It was Sunday, and it would be hard to find someone to help. The car was lock-safe, so she could not pick the lock.

So, Mommy looked in the telephone book and found a locksmith who would come help her if she would pay him a lot of money. She agreed. He came and unlocked the door, although he broke the lock, so then, Mommy had to get the lock fixed. Mommy thanked him and paid him, anyway. She was just glad to get the keys so that she could drive home. With relief, she picked them up from the seat — but they were the wrong keys, the keys for the house.

With a sigh, Mommy went back to the bookstore. It was now almost two hours after she had left the store, and if her keys were in the store, she could have saved two hours of time. As it turned out, she could have saved those two hours because the information desk had the keys. They asked Mommy what she would do to get them back, and she said, "Just about anything." They made Mommy jump up and down and bark like a dog to get her keys back. I bet a lot of shoppers thought she was crazy. Maybe they were right!

Conclusion: If you want to drive somewhere, you have to have the keys.


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This story is excerpted from a collection of vignettes that I helped Doah, my severely mentally challenged youngest son, to write and publish several years ago (copyright 2003). It was my attempt to help him understand literacy and the purpose of writing and reading.

My Friend, Sveta

Thanks to my friend, Svetlana (Sveta), I knew what to do to get my daughter, Lizzie, into school when I took her with me on a study year in Moscow. Thanks to Sveta, Lizzie was adequately prepared for school once we got past the first few weeks of filling out all the paperwork and receiving all the permissions (not easy in the days of the Soviet Union -- American kids simply did not "transfer" to Soviet schools, and approving anomalies did not come easy to USSR bureaucrats). Thanks to Sveta, I grew to know Soviet society and, more important, Soviet people very well.

Sveta and I had become acquainted two years earlier. When I showed up in 1984 in Moscow with Lizzie in tow, Sveta already knew who she was and eagerly awaited the opportunity to meet her and introduce her to children’s life in the Soviet Union. To Sveta’s delight, while waiting to get Lizzie enrolled in school, I still had to go to my own classes at the University of Moscow, where I was taking a graduate course in dialectology. Concurrently, I was conducting research for my dissertation at Dissertatsionyj zal (the dissertation archives) at Biblioteka imeni Lenina (Lenin Library) downtown. So, Lizzie would have been alone for long periods of time had not Sveta, a graduate student in the field of philosophy, watched out for her. Sveta also gave Lizzie indirect lessons in Russian that stood her in good stead in her early days in School #77. Sveta knew no English so all communication was in Russian, and Lizzie picked up the language by necessity. When she started attending school, Lizzie already had a comfort level in communicating and sufficient tolerance of ambiguity in the language not to panic when she did not understand.

Sveta and I were bonded by our daughters, Sonya and Noelle, and her brother, who lived in the same "sektor" (dorm area) of the university that we did. Although I never met Sonya, who had moved back to Krasnodar to live with her father shortly before I became acquainted with Sveta, I felt like I knew her because she, like Noelle, suffered from hydrocephalus, colloquially known as water-on-the-brain. Although Sveta never met Noelle, she felt like she knew her because both her brother and Noelle coped daily with paraplegia. Until I showed up with Lizzie, we had only pictures through which to share our families. Now I had a real child with me, Noelle’s sister, Lizzie. Sveta promised to bring her real McCoy, Sonya, from Krasnodar so the children could play together. Like most graduate students, we had great plans for ourselves and for our children.

The three of us had not spent many hours together, however, before Sveta was diagnosed with tuberculosis. I urged her to stay in Moscow where the medical care was more advanced and where I could keep an eye on her. Her husband demanded that she return to Krasnodar where he could take care of her and she could be with her daughter. She returned to Krasnodar, begging me to come visit her there. I had no visa for Krasnodar and no hope at that time for getting one because I would have had to indicate that I was planning to visit a friend—at a time when Russians were not supposed to be friends with Americans.

“No problem,” said Sveta. “Just jump on the train and come without a visa. No one will know you are not Russian.” Well, perhaps my generic appearance and my Russian-language skills would allow me to pass for a Russian. The Ministry of Education of Ukraine proved that hypothesis to be true ten years later when it bought me a Russian ticket, not a foreigner ticket, through Simferopol to Sudak in the Crimea on the Black Sea. Nonetheless, Lizzie’s grey eyes, auburn hair, dimples, and freckles would not pass, in spite of her school uniform, for the features of a Russian child. So, I did not go—that time.

Two years later, when I came back to Moscow to provide consultation to the American ambassador on language programs, I applied for a visa to Krasnodar and sent a telegram to Sveta, telling her my plans. (This was, of course, before the days of Internet, cell phones, and other marvelous forms of instant communication.) Sveta, upon learning that I was in Moscow and doubting that I would be able to get a visa for Krasnodar, hopped immediately onto a plane and flew to meet me in Moscow, but she never informed me that she was coming. In the interim, I did get a visa for Krasnodar, and off I went to Domodedovo Airport to fly to the land of the Kuban, the middle land of European Russia. The plane from Krasnodar had landed, and in a spurt of efficiency, the airline officials had us already lined up to load onto the plane as the last of the passengers from Krasnodar were disembarking. Like in the plot of a B-rated movie, as I shuffled behind the other passengers to get onto the plane, through a window in the panel that separated embarking from disembarking passengers, I caught a glimpse of Sveta. I stopped and pounded on the window. She turned and rushed over.

“I’ll fly back,” she mouthed. “Meet me tonight at the town square.” That was all she was able to get out before we were both pushed away from each other by the stream of passengers behind us, pushing us forward.

Sveta did not make it back to Krasnodar that evening. For hours, I waited in vain at the town square. At least, the weather was not severe. Over the next few days, I became acquainted with Krasnodar, a city that represented the mix that could be seen throughout Russia: a modern Intourist hotel for visiting foreigners and houses without plumbing for residents. I remembered Sveta telling me how she had to go to the end of the street to pump water for use at home. Now, Sveta was in Moscow, and I was in her town. I sent a telegram to Zina, a mutual friend living in the outskirts of Moscow to whom Sveta had introduced me in 1982. I knew that Sveta would have checked in with her. In the telegram, I asked them both to meet me at Arbat Restaurant in the center of town at 7:00 on Friday. I flew back to Moscow on Friday, and once again found myself waiting for hours for Sveta. Finally, around 9:00, I called Zina at home. She answered the phone.

“We just got the telegram,” she explained, “only ten minutes ago. We are coming. We will be there in an hour.”

“I sent the telegram three days ago,” I remarked, but my remark should not have been in surprise.

“Yeah,” said Zina. “That might be, but you know the KGB has to read it first and then would try to deliver it at a time that could be said it was delivered but late enough that you would miss meeting with us. It is good that you called.”

We did meet. It was to be the last time I would see Sveta. Only then, I had no inkling of how ill she was. The call from Zina, telling me that Sveta had died, came in the middle of the night two years later. There was nothing strange about the time. There is an 11-hour difference in time zones between Moscow and California. Nonetheless, given that the call came in the middle of the night and carried such tragic news, I was certain for days that I had dreamed it. Unfortunately, it was no dream.

I have written poems in Russian for Sveta on several occasions: when she was dying and on the anniversaries of her death. Recently, I wrote one on the occasion of the twentieth anniversary of her death. How young she died, and how many years have passed! More important and more unbelievably, so much has changed in those twenty years that one would not today recognize Sveta’s rodina (motherland) as the same country. The Union of Soviet Socialist Republics has reverted to Old Russia with many, many new elements, making it a New Russia. The worries we suffered are now only a dim memory from the social history of the former Soviet Union.

[If you do not read Russian, skip forward to the English translation.]

Не «прощай», Света, а «пока»!

На 20-ую годовщину смерти
Моей молодой подруги советской.

Ох, как я помню московские вечера
И наши чувства, как будьто все прошло вчера.
Под громкой музыкой радио шептали,
Недопустимые мысли выражали.

Ох, как я помню наши поделившие
Идеи и надежды на будущее,
На дружбу вечную, жизнь удачную,
И работу и степень кандидатскую.

И помню как мы сидели с ее братом
Живущем в блоке с нами рядом.
Талантливым, он был, и безумно милым,
Жизнерадостным, жизнелюбивым, мирным.

А сейчас призасыпанный землей лежит
Из-за бессмысленной смерти—перитонит.
И помню неутещающие слезы
И вечно повторяющие вопросы:

Почему? Как? Чем объяснить? Чем утешить?
Ну, сегодня же что значит перитонит?
Вопросы никак неотвечаемые.
Ответы никак непонимаемые.

Я помню как мы все теснее сближились,
Как мы, русская с американкой, дружились.
При холодной войне кто это подумал бы?
Но у нас больше смерти общего, увы!

Она родила дочь, а я сразу за ней.
Головная водянка у наших дочерей
И парализированные ноги.
К тому же у обеих и припадки.

Помню как Света от горя с ума сошла.
Я не могла помогать. Я была в США.
Я помню как от тюберкулеза она,
До своего времени, увы, умерла.

О Свет, все изменилось после распада!
Скрывать дружбу как мы скрывали не надо.
И не надо бояться как мы боялись.
Создать открытое общество старались.

Но сейчас на том свете, не на этом, ты.
Туда пошли подряд, друзья мои, все вы.
В то время была я в далекой стране,
Справляясь только матом о суровой судьбе.

Но настоящая дружба не умирает,
Только организм приятеля изчезает.
Твой дух, который жил, все еще живет
У меня в сердце и мыслях и даже расстет.

Ветераны мы холодной войны.
Ветераны мы жестокой судьбы.
Но надо иметь ввиду с другой стороны
Что уникальную дружбу имели мы.

(Translation: “Not Good-Bye, Sveta, Just Ciao for Now.” On the 20th anniversary of the death of my young Soviet friend. Oh, how I remember the Moscow evenings and our feelings, as if everything had happened yesterday, how we turned up the radio and whispered disallowed ideas into each others’ ears. Oh, how I remember our shared thoughts and hopes for the future, for eternal friendship, a successful life, and for jobs and our doctorates. I remember how we sat with her brother who lived in the dorm room next to us. Talented he was and really kind, filled with the joy of living, the love of life, a peaceful mind. And now he lies buried under a mound of earth because of a senseless death—peritonitis. I remember uncomforted tears and eternally repeating cries: Why? How? For what reason? How to keep on going? After all, how fatal is peritonitis today? Questions that had no answers. Answers that could be understood no way. I remember how we grew closer, how we, Russian and American, celebrated friendship. During the Cold War, who would have thought this? Alas, we had more than death in common. She gave birth to a daughter, and so did I. Both daughters had water-on-the-brain, and both suffered from seizures; my daughter was moreover paraplegic. I remember how Sveta went crazy with grief. I could not help. I was in the USA. I remember how tuberculosis took her life, alas, prematurely. Oh, Svet’ everything has changed since communism’s fall. One no longer has to hide a friendship as we did. One no longer has to fear as we did. An open society is appearing. But now you are in that world, not this. You, my friends, went there one after another. I was in a faraway land, and only cursing helped me cope with a cruel fate. But true friendship does not die. Only the body we no longer see. Your spirit, which lived then, lives now in my heart and in my mind and even grows. Veterans of the Cold War were we. Victims of a cruel fate were we. But one must hold to another view: we had a unique friendship, so true.)

My poems about Sveta were not without effect on others. A teacher, whom I shall call Elena and with whom I was working at the time, had not seen a close personal friend in many years and had the opportunity to meet her in Bulgaria. This was a bit risky when the Soviet empire reigned since Bulgaria was held closely in check by the USSR. Still, both Easterners and Westerners could travel there, making Bulgaria about the only crossroads available for those who wanted to meet. Elena confided in me where she was going and whom she was going to meet in case something happened. She gave me her phone numbers and other ways to reach her if she did not show up at work at the end of her scheduled annual leave.

“I would never have dared to take such a risk without you,” she told me. “I am a refusenik [someone who defied the Soviet government] and am here in the US as a refugee. For my own safety, I should not go to Bulgaria, but after listening to your poems about Sveta, I realize that friendship has a sacred character to it. We do not come by true friends easily, and we should not abandon them under any circumstances. I will go and see my friend, see how and if I can help her, and I will rely on God to take care of me and bring me back.”

She returned on time. Her decision, she said, had been the right one.

Once again, something bad -— the death of my friend —- had been turned into something good -— Elena’s courage to see her friend before it was too late. This has been a theme in my life: bad turning into good, into a chance for one person to help another, even for one person to help many.

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This excerpt is adapted from my book, Blest Atheist (MSI Press, copyright 2009).

Things Are Not Always What They Seem To Be

The story below has run around the Internet for some time. The author, as far as I know, is unknown. Still, the story is worth the telling.

Two traveling angels stopped to spend the night in the home of a wealthy family. The family was rude and refused to let the angels stay in the mansion's guest room. Instead the angels were given a small space in the cold basement. As they made their bed on the hard floor, the older angel saw a hole in the wall and repaired it. When the younger angel asked why, the older angel replied, "Things aren't always what they seem."

The next night the pair came to rest at the house of a very poor, but very hospitable farmer and his wife. After sharing what little food they had the couple let the angels sleep in their bed where they could have a good night's rest. When the sun came up the next morning the angels found the farmer and his wife in tears. Their only cow, whose milk had been their sole income, lay dead in the field. The younger angel was infuriated and asked the older angel, "How could you have let this happen? The first man had everything, yet you helped him," he accused. "The second family had little but was willing to share everything, and you let the cow die."

"Things aren't always what they seem," the older angel replied. "When we stayed in the basement of the mansion, I noticed there was gold stored in that hole in the wall. Since the owner was so obsessed with greed and unwilling to share his good fortune, I sealed the wall so he wouldn't find it. Then last night as we slept in the farmers bed, the angel of death came for his wife. I gave him the cow instead. Things aren't always what they seem."

Similarly, God's answers to our prayers and the ways in which God provides for us may seem obtuse to us at the moment that they occur. (See, for example, the total misunderstanding of God's seeming inaction when a farm couple encountered difficulties, recorded in the short story, "When All Disappears.") In the long run, when the future unveils that which we do not know at the moment, we find that no matter what we had prayed for or hoped for, in the final analysis God knew best!